Hey, I’m C4TM30W — just call me Cat

I was born in 1981 in Germany and later moved to Slovenia, where I attended a secondary school of commerce and qualified as a display design technician. I now live in Croatia. This place has never truly felt like home to me, and I hope that one day I will find the courage to leave, travel the world, or discover my purpose somewhere else.

I speak English, German, Slovenian and Croatian. I love building things from scratch, painting, photography, traveling, good food and writing. Lately, because of depression and health issues, I don’t really do much of that anymore, but it is still part of me.

I’m emotional, chaotic, and I have my heart on my tongue, which gets me in trouble sometimes. I can be toxic, especially in-game or when someone really pisses me off. Sometimes I think I may have Peter Pan syndrome, maybe even ADHD, but I was never tested, so who knows.

I hate lies, dishonesty, broken promises and people taking others for granted. I don’t give promises often, because when I do, I actually try to keep them. I like helping people and being there for them, but I’ve been used for that and thrown away like trash enough times. At this point, I don’t really trust people’s words anymore.

Still, I know what it feels like to be alone or stuck in a dark hole, so sometimes I still give people chances, even when they maybe don’t deserve them.

I love cats, obviously. Charly is my cat, my love. He doesn’t judge me and is actually happy to see me every single day.

Gaming is where I escape reality and go into a world where possibilities feel open, unlike real life sometimes.

On Twitch, I stream sometimes as a VTuber, sometimes not. My chat is quiet most of the time, so I made a bot inspired by my lost cat Macho — to answer questions, keep people company, and make the empty chat feel a little less empty.

Maybe one day I’ll stream to people who actually stay and come there for me.